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2011
My best friend for eight years had just moved away, so I only had one close friend, Emmie. We both had crushes on the same boy, Trè. He confessed that he had a crush on me as well and we became a couple (this was fourth grade, not serious). Emmie became mad at me and I lost my only friend. She gained new ones quickly however, "The Popular CheerLeader Clique". Emmie and her group would throw rocks at me during recess. I was alone. -
2012
It's fifth grade now, and I've made one new friend, Brynn. At the time, I was in a relationship with a boy named Joseph. He would hold my hand and we were the school's "it couple". During this, Brynn had a crush on a boy names Gavin. She would constantly talk about how incredible he was. I started to realize she was right and I adapted a crush on Gavin. I broke up with Joseph and he hasn't talked to me since. -
2014
I was going through a state of depression during this time (for reasons I don't feel comfortable admitting). I was also dating Tyler G. Him, Giselle and I were a "golden trio", who would spend every second together. I would like to say I was happy at this time, but that would be lying. I hardly ate and I self harmed. I had trust in my friends, so I told them about myself. Later, Tyler texted me and said he wanted to kill himself. He blamed me for exposing him to depression. We broke up. -
2015
The next year, Tyler and I became friends again. For a theater assignment, we had to go see a play. Tyler and I went together. After this, we secretly dated, but I was still severely depressed. For some reason, Tyler didn't believe I was. One day, we were arguing in an empty classroom. To prove to him that I was depressed, I took a pair of scissors, drew a line down my forearm and he just watched. He became mad at me instead of helping me. Note: before this, he told me he loved me. -
September, 2016
At the end of eighth grade, Tyler and I became friends again. I had a crush on him and somehow convinced him to go to homecoming with me. We held hands and danced together. With the way we were acting, I assumed we were dating. He texted me after that dance and told me he liked me, but didn't want to date me. The next day, he said the only reason he pretended we were dating at homecoming, was to look cool. Someone who I once considered my love, my best friend, doesn't talk to me anymore. -
October, 2016
During the summer, someone named Trevor started to text me. We would FaceTime and became really close without ever meeting. Towards mid-August, I discovered he was a junior, but I thought he was a sophomore. He admitted he would still like me even though I was two years younger. We started dating on October fourth. He would give me rides to and from school and leave surprise gifts at my door. On November 1, I got a text from him saying that there was no point to dating me.