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1.1 Entering Adolescence
I believe my adolescence year started when I was 10 years old because I started my period. My mood swing went insane and my body suddenly changed into a grown up body in no time. I remember my mom was very upset that the puberty hit me so hard and so early because ladies in my family tend to start their period after 13 years old. When my body changed, I started to flirt boys, became curious with everything, need to be around with friends all the time because I thought it was cool. -
2.1-Early Maturer
I had a unfortunate experience with the puberty because I had it very early and my body changed suddenly into a lot of stretch marks anywhere. I believe it happened during August of 2005 which I was 10 years old. I became very curious about sexual things like I had my first kiss. I remember I had attitude issue with teachers and dorm staffs because I had mood swing and very insecure when I had my period and didn't use to these hormones travel around in my body. -
3.1 - Imaginary Audience
I remember when I tried to wear these baby phat clothes and weave braids to impress that I was black enough to be part of their culture. I observed a lot of Hip-Hop dance videos and practiced on my own. I imagined I danced and signed a song loud like Beyonce front of my mirror. My mom could hear me all the day and she literally had to force me to be quiet. I see it is a good example for imaginary audience because I wanted people to recognize me as a Biracial and strongly Black culture influence -
2.2- Niche Picking
I had gene-environment interaction with black kids because I never had my father in my life. I didn't know what it is. Kids forced me to learn how to dance and run fast. One day, my PE teacher assigned us to run five laps every fridays, I wasn't thrilled but until he recorded our times. He was very impressed with my time and encouraged me to play for track. After all, I got several medals so black kids I grew up with are the reason I found my physical ability with running fast and dancing well. -
3.3-Social Comparison
Through high school time, I always wanted to wear cool outfit to look popular and bragged about my creative for my clothes. I compared to my best friend who had the art skills like she could do the makeup flawlessly and handmade bracelets. I decided to use my sewing skills to show that I do have creative skills too. Sometime, I won't admit that I feel socially undesirable when I saw my best friend had it better than me. -
7.3- Intrinsic Motivation
I was sick with diabetes, I missed a lot of school days and possibly to repeat 8 grade level. Failure isn't the word I wanted to hear so I disagreed because I didn't want to miss my graduation. I was determined that I can catch up with assignments so my mom asked my principal to send me these assignments and I finished all of it. I only did that for my own good because I wanted to feel good to be with my friends and achieve together. Failure is an only way to motivate me to do more. -
4.2- Non-gender typed behavior
When I used to live with a lot of kids in dormitory back in lower school days, there are a lot of girls who are tomboys. I remember this girl named Indra, she always wear t-shirt and show her crack butt in the jeans. She could become physically aggressive when someone annoyed and make her angry. I always thought it wasn't the gender type for her behavior because girls would be only relational aggressive such as making gossips or picking on others. So, she didn't interest in these girls stuff. -
3.2- Differentiation
I was 15 years and it was first time I finally understood my relationship with the individuals such as myself, family, teacher and friends. I was a teacher's pet because I was always at good behavior. Turned into a different person when I was with my friends, because I wanted us to have fun and do silly things together as irresponsible people. I would become a very hyper when I eat candy by myself in my own bed. With my family, I always sat and quiet because none of them knew sign language -
7.1- Transition to High School
When I was in 8 grade, I played for varsity volleyball team with high school girl. I had to go forward and backward for my middle school classes to high school gym for volleyball practice. I managed with my roles as older student in middle school and a youngest volleyball player in high school team at the same time. I was clearly a top dog, I was a very pure and innocent, when I was with high school girls, but when I was with my peers, I would be a bigger and loud kid in the group. -
4.1- Gender-typed behavior
I grew up with my childhood friend, Aaron. He loved getting in the center of attention. I could see him engaging in report talk. He would make everyone laugh by making a goofy facial expression with storytelling and joking. I believe that type of behavior belong to adolescent boys who tend to talk with an ego and verbal performances. -
6.2- Phsycial Support
Two best friends I grew up as an adolescent, Ryan and Deanna, they were there when I first diagnosed with Diabetes. I was in the a wrecked condition. Also, Deanna went through with the divorce at the same. We all emotionally supported with each other so much and went the point where our bond became stronger. After our recovery from the chaos, we started going out and making a lot of memories before Deanna and I transferred to different schools. It was the most emotional memory I had in life. -
6.3- Stimulation
I love the adrenaline energy like hiking, going to amusement park or doing something adventure with friends. I remember I have one friend named Lukas, he always would be down to do anything! We made our friendship tradition, going to the six flags in New Jersey. We kept stimulating each other like we would ask each other what do we want to do next. Even during our sleepover nights, we once made 300 cookies in one night because we were restless and bored out of our mind. -
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8.1- Rite of Passage
This is my 17 years old portrait, it was a big deal for my mom because when she was 17, she was pregnant with me. She managed raising me by herself and especially that I'm a girl who's expected to recycle of teen moms. I respected very well for her and wanted to celebrate that with her by taking pictures of myself and with her. This isn't typical of rite of passage because we don't really practice any religious but we believe in spirituality like the fate will always guide us to somewhere. -
“1.2 Emerging Adulthood
After rough teenage years with diabetes, I was 17, my favorite grandpa had misfortunate with court because he tried to defense himself from a guy who tried to hurt but ended up he accidentally killed him. It was overwhelming for my family and me because we had to deal with everything like bail, lawyer, and especially for my four young cousins who were scared and confused. I had to be strong and protective for them. It was first time I was faced to the reality with so many heartaches and fights. -
6.1- parent adolescent conflict
My mom and I have been always best friends, we always have each other's back. But, I remember I always wanted to be independent so bad. I decided to do something independently like getting my own debit card when I was getting ready for college. My mom behaved like a clingy mother, she wanted to be nosy and know how much I manage my money during these college. It was an egocentrism but I had to remind her everyday that I want to learn to be independent in the case if something happens in my life. -
7.2- Transition to College
During my first year at Gallaudet, I was overwhelmed with everything, social change, lifestyle, finance, and the independence. Of course, I was thrilled to be able to do anything I want because there were no staffs or teachers that would tell me what to do. But, it was a great time to learn how to do the time management at best and handle my stress with school and work. Also, I finally found my true friends during these time because I learned so much and become less naive in general situations.
